Aaja dherai paxi public diary lekhdai xu, dherai vayo maile publically nalekehko cause thorai samayama dherai kura haru change vaisakyo rw ma still process gardai xu rw gari rahaney xu life vari nai...
College ma sathy haru koi xaina cause, mero IT field paryo rw sathy haruko Hospitality paryo. Aani, Kam haru pani ramrai chaldai xa trw KFC garna man lagadaina aajkal rw sushi ma chai uni haru dherai korean bolxan rw leftout feel hunxa tesaile pani tenha garna manlagdaina.
Life ma ekjana le garda dherai nai emotionally rw mentally unstable state ma xu aaile trw sano sano kura haru ramro vairaheko xa tesle garda ma normal nai xu. Aasti Abhishek dai rw Sooneya dd sanga thupka khana gaya, hijo anup rw anup ko dd sanga vet vayo, strathfield park ma baserw skewerws khaim, ramailo vayo rw yestai sano sano kura haru le garda life chali raheko xa jasto lagxa.
Aaile chai 11:31 pm vayeko xa july 2, ma movie herdai xu " Even If This Love Disappears Tonight " vanney, ekdam ramro xa.
Aaja Thrusday sayad 1 months vayo since we haven't talked properly or anything at all it's the end I think. K hunthyo hola edi yo sab sapana vayeko Vaya?
Life ma yo thorai time ma dherai kura haru sikiyo, sahiyo, bhogiyo, k garna hunxa k garna hunna sikiyo, rw kasai ko lagi aafno self respect pani gumaiyo. Kasai lai pnai aafno self respect vanda mathi chai rakhnu nahuney rahexa, malai you kura taha thiyo trw emotionally driven vayerw galat nirnaya linw pugexu. Trw Vishan le vanxa tw " J hunxa ramrai kai lagi hunxa ".
Aarko kura chai aaru lai kei kura ko lagi kar garna chai nahuney rahexa, if they really respect you or understand you they will never do that. Trw pani malai yo kura accept garna nikai nai garo vairaheko xa.
Malai Sabbai le Lucky xau tme vanxa, I don't know kinw ho, probably they don't know how am I feeling inside vanerw pani hola. Ya sayad, ma dherai emotionally kura haru share nagarney vayerw pani hola. sayad kahile sakdaina pani hola aaba tw.
Malai Kumar Nagarkoti ko poem rw story haru le dherai help gari raheko xa sutnw ma ra feelings control garna ma.
Aaja malai euta poem relatable lagyo, which I saved years ago or so :
हे बटुवा तिम्ले जति पराई सम्झन्छौ मलाई, त्यति परको म हैन, हे बटुवा वेश्यालाई सजाउनु खोपीमा मिलाई, आफ्नो घरमा हैन।
Tei ho, expectation narakhna try garirahekai xu, tei pani khai kinw ho kinw somehow we will be end up together jasto lagxa, trw ma teti bela chai uslai accept garney state ma hunna jasto lagxa.
Priya sambedana, aaja ko yo diary public xa I don't know who will read it, I am fine, but somehow mentally and emotionally drain and unstable...
Heram, Samaya sanga kehi tw change hola ni, natrw kasari yesari jindagi bitauna sakinxa, kasai ko samjhana ma jindagi bitauna kaha sakiyala rw, tei pani try garam, samaya le tme lai pani dhorauney xa.......... HAHAHAHAHAH.
: I'm not single, म भित्र बास गरेको उनको याद छ, मलाइ त्यति भए पुग्यो।
Yo sabbai mero prespective ho, so it could be anything.....
